Baring it all. How much did and do I weigh. Weight feels.
If you live under a rock you wouldn’t have noticed that there have been some changes in my life – Breakdowns were had, friends were lost in the storm, diabetes was diagnosed – b12 injections and anti depressants for anxiety have been consumed.
But still I rise.
I’m a tough bitch but I know when to call a spade a spade and woman up and help myself. I don’t wanna be chronically ill, I know so many people who live with illnesses they can’t control – so the face I can beat mine is a blessing and one that I am not taking lightly – I will fight and rise and rise.
I am so thankful to have such a supportive community around me, who cheer me on and send me advice and tips – which I either take on board or don’t but it is mostly heart warming and special. I feel so cared for and appreciated.
Sharing that I have TYPE2 Diabetes was so hard, I chose to do it because I didn’t want to be ashamed, nothing good comes of keeping secrets and hiding things away in the dark.
In talking about it I discovered how many people really live with this condition, many of who are fighting along with me for health, some are just not ready to take control – and that’s for them to figure out in their time.
How I got diagnosed was I went to the doctor about my anxiety and discovered I had lost a significant amount of weight – we had moved house, stress can do that to most people, but for me if I’m feeling shit, you can be assured I’m eating those feelings.
In June 2018 I clocked in at 182kgs (size 26-28) and I am 183cms tall – I had a sudden weight loss and had gone down to 175kg – in Aug/Sept 2018.
I then gave up COKE and started to make small changed to address my blood sugar levels. SEE POST HERE
I have been actively trying to eat well and move more, and it’s really paying off health wise, my sugar levels are always within normal range – I am due next week for another HBA1C test, to check.
As of today – I now weigh 150kg and wear a size 20-22 pants and a size 24 top/dress.
BUT LISA WHY ARE YOU TELLING US NUMBERS
I decided to come clean about this because plus size people don’t actually talk about weight in numbers – because it is no ones business.
I wanted to share it because I have always felt like the heaviest person in the room and like I was too happy in my self and too stubborn to actually make the changes I needed to.
I feel like my message is one of, if I can get started so can you. Its not even about numbers or clothing, Its about life and health and living and loving and being present for our families….
I hope someone out there will find some sense of not feeling so alone- and finds the strength to put one foot in front of the other and do what needs to be done for themselves.