on my heart, plus size, Self Love, weight loss, Work In progress

Baring it all. How much did and do I weigh. Weight feels.

May 17, 2019

If you live under a rock you wouldn’t have noticed that there have been some changes in my life – Breakdowns were had, friends were lost in the storm, diabetes was diagnosed – b12 injections and anti depressants for anxiety have been consumed.

But still I rise.

I’m a tough bitch but I know when to call a spade a spade and woman up and help myself. I don’t wanna be chronically ill, I know so many people who live with illnesses they can’t control – so the face I can beat mine is a blessing and one that I am not taking lightly – I will fight and rise and rise.

I am so thankful to have such a supportive community around me, who cheer me on and send me advice and tips – which I either take on board or don’t but it is mostly heart warming and special. I feel so cared for and appreciated.

Sharing that I have TYPE2 Diabetes was so hard, I chose to do it because I didn’t want to be ashamed, nothing good comes of keeping secrets and hiding things away in the dark.
In talking about it I discovered how many people really live with this condition, many of who are fighting along with me for health, some are just not ready to take control – and that’s for them to figure out in their time.

How I got diagnosed was I went to the doctor about my anxiety and discovered I had lost a significant amount of weight – we had moved house, stress can do that to most people, but for me if I’m feeling shit, you can be assured I’m eating those feelings.
In June 2018 I clocked in at 182kgs (size 26-28) and I am 183cms tall – I had a sudden weight loss and had gone down to 175kg – in Aug/Sept 2018.

I then gave up COKE and started to make small changed to address my blood sugar levels. SEE POST HERE

I have been actively trying to eat well and move more, and it’s really paying off health wise, my sugar levels are always within normal range – I am due next week for another HBA1C test, to check.

As of today – I now weigh 150kg and wear a size 20-22 pants and a size 24 top/dress.


BUT LISA WHY ARE YOU TELLING US NUMBERS

I decided to come clean about this because plus size people don’t actually talk about weight in numbers – because it is no ones business.
I wanted to share it because I have always felt like the heaviest person in the room and like I was too happy in my self and too stubborn to actually make the changes I needed to.

I feel like my message is one of, if I can get started so can you. Its not even about numbers or clothing, Its about life and health and living and loving and being present for our families….

YA DIG?
I hope someone out there will find some sense of not feeling so alone- and finds the strength to put one foot in front of the other and do what needs to be done for themselves.

Stay cool

Lisa x


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3 Comments

  1. Bev Reader

    May 17, 2019 at 9:28 pm

    To be honest I started following you . I was kind of interested by didn’t know your story but slowly and surely I’ve been motivated and cut back smoking hoping to give up fully and dusted off the treadmill and decided I want to be healthier too . So thank you 😊

  2. Kathleen

    May 17, 2019 at 9:58 pm

    Thanks Lisa for this. This makes me feel a little less alone in my journey to better my health ❤️

  3. Anonymous

    May 18, 2019 at 4:55 pm

    A fabulous person who inspires me hugely

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