More thoughts on Autism (and a linky)
It must be confession time?
I remember both days like they were yesterday, walking out of meetings with so many emotions and feelings sitting in the pit of my stomach. I didn’t know what to do.
I was afraid, afraid of what this label, diagnosis whatever you wanna call it, meant for the future and also afraid for myself. That I won’t be good enough or smart enough to cater to both of my boys different yet complex needs.
I realize now that the reality of raising an autistic child is no different to raising any other child. We simply do what works for us and go with that. No parent is given a manual on how to raise a child.
There is no one to blame.
One of the things that I often struggle with even though I know it is nonsense is BLAME.
I blamed myself, not the doctors and anyone else A part of me still clings to the need to understand why MY babies have this and the hardest thing about Autism is that there are no answers to the question WHY?!
I am not to blame. I am constantly told by ‘professionals’ how I have just been blessed with a very unique children who will teach me to see the world in such a special way. Although I may not always see this in the beginning, I know it to be true.
I need to be kind to me.
The power in positive thinking is immense.
I have stopped listening to parents who had nothing but negative things to say about being a parent of a child with Autism. The way a select few have spoken about it wore me down and made me worry that there was no real future for my kids and that they would never lead anything close to a “normal” life.
This is nowhere near my truth. I am not saying there won’t be tough days, and nights when I will shed a few tears but nobody has the right to put a negative light on my child’s future.
One thing I have constantly encountered in life after this Autism diagnosis is ignorance. People who think your child needs discipline rather than support and understanding. I ignore this, these comments mean nothing. My family and friends are the people who know my child and they are the people who will see the struggles and achievements me and my kids make throughout life, they are the people who matter.
After a week filled with constant appointments related to Autism I really needed to get all the feelings out. It can be very overwhelming but I know we will get through.
This is a linkup!
Feel free to share a post from the past week, whether it be something that is on your heart or a post you wrote that you really loved. Link closes 9am Monday Morning.